Baby is asleep and I am not. Time to organize my random thoughts. When you're a Mommy there's not always enough time to thoroughly think through things. So here comes my list of random thoughts for the day (or week-month-year).
1. I feel like it is entirely acceptable for me to stare at my closet and think to myself, "I have nothing to wear". Why? Because some of my closet is packed away in storage and knowing that everything is not here makes me long for things that are packed away. Yes, I have plenty of nice clothes in my current closet, but I still feel at a loss for outfits.
2. I have begun using hashtags in Instagram... but I still feel they are slightly ridiculous. Well, not always. But some hashtags are pretty ridiculous in and of themselves... and then some people use hashtags in really ridiculous ways. ... Or some people use hashtags where it is not linking to anything- which is just plain pointless.
3. I am a bit ashamed of how far down my reading list I made it this year. The Eve-part of me is pointing my finger at my baby who only takes 5-10 minutes to nurse. Everyone told me I'd have so much time to read while the baby was eating. Wrong. Of course, for the first few months of his life he did do a lot of sitting, lying, or sleeping. I was too busy staring at my beautiful baby to read. On second thought, staring at my firstborn is a much better use of my time than reading. So I don't feel quite so ashamed any longer. (but I WILL do better next year!)
4. I held a newborn today. I was already growing in baby number two fever... this pushed me over the top! Thankfully, my baby Daddy is on board! Of course, the logistics of all this will be rather tricky while he remains in training. But, at least we're on the same page. Jack, are you ready to be a big brother?
5. Thinking about Jack being a big brother makes me feel: guilty, excited, nervous, and hesitant. Jack is going through an attachment stage right now. He may grow out of it, or he may remain a clingy Momma's boy well through childhood. If the latter, then I'm not sure how he will handle a new baby. Plus, I love my time with just him right now. I don't want to give that up, but I would love to have two close together in age. The Lord brought Jack along at the perfect time. I have no doubts baby number two will be the same way.
6. My thumb nail got a chip. It's just a little into my nail bed. I'm afraid to try to clip the nail. Too bad I can't magic my nails to grow when I need them too. Also, too bad I can't magic my nails painted any color I wanted! (Magic, as in Harry Potter, of course)
7. The past couple days I've been missing my husband a lot. Not much I can do about that. He should get some form of pass this weekend so at least we'll be able to skype. Thank the Lord for technology. Truly. Being away from your spouse makes you appreciate technology is a whole new way.
8. I feel like Grey's Anatomy has begun to redeem itself. I thoroughly enjoy that show so I would continue watching even if got super lame... but I am glad that the plots are picking up and the character development is growing. I like Ross- he is a much less annoying Kepner. I also like that they brought in the Andre girl- I always liked that movie. I do miss Lexie and Mark though. Seriously, couldn't they have killed off Avery and kept McSteamy? I think they should bring back Burke. Ok, I could go on, but this is enough.
9. All this week there has been construction going on in my parents' storage room. It is now divided into a storage hallway, a tool room, and a workout room. It isn't fully complete yet. I will enjoy having the basement back- especially having free reign of my shower. It's kinda awkward getting ready in the morning, with a baby to keep track of, when there's men walking around.
10. I got on the scale today for the first time since I packed mine away in September before we moved to Michigan. I was pleasantly surprised at the results! I guess not obsessing about your weight pays off! While I have been eating more sweets (cookies and cupcakes specifically), I've tried to balance those off with healthy foods and playing with Jack takes a lot of time and energy. Thank you, Jack, for helping me get to well under my pre-preggo weight!
Ok, that is enough. I feel like I've had some "me" time. Blogging can be so therapeutic. I used to write in paper journals, but now my hand gets so tensed up after half a page! That won't do. Life gets busy, we forget moments we swear we'll remember for the rest of our lives, but inevitably we forget our day-to-day. I like to record in some format what has happened and how my life has evolved and changed. Maybe someday I'll read back through. Maybe I never will. But at least it clears my head for now.
Huh, kinda like a Pensieve. Maybe there is magic afterall...
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