Sulky

Fair warning- this is going to be a mini pity party. I'm not as good at throwing them as I used to be, but I still just need to sulk and mope every once in awhile. 

So when we loved in Lynchburg for the first four years of marriage I made several new friends. Surprising since this was my college town and some of my college friends were still there too. But I made some wonderful friendships and I dearly miss those ladies. They are some of the women I feel "get me" most. 

Then when we lived at Fort Sill I quickly made some wonderful friends. I had a group of ladies who met weekly for coffee at restaurants or each others' houses. There were a couple who truly felt like kindred spirits to me after just 7 months of living there. A couple of them I just "clicked" with immediately. Most of these friends didn't have kids, but they all didn't kind Jackson tagging along wherever we went. 

Granted, both in Lynchburg and Fort Sill there were some girls who I initially didn't think I was going to get along with but it turned out they are some of my closest friends now. So I have learned not to base my friendships off first impressions alone. 

So here we are at Fort Campbell. I have met a handful of women, all who have kids since that's who I've been trying to connect with via Facebook, and have a few potential friends in the making. I'm just really hoping there's someone out there who I just "click" with immediately. Someone with common interests as I. Someone with similar worldviews as I. Someone I can confide in when needed. I know that friendships take time to develop, but today I've been feeling the need for a good, solid friend. Someone I could've asked to come over this evening just for girl talk because I felt in a slump. 

I did reach out to two of my potential friends to make plans for the coming weeks tonight. That has been my go to way to make myself feel better. Unfortunately that means I have morning plans Monday, Tuesday, and Wedneaday of next week! I'll leave Thursday and Friday alone for "recovery" days since my Preggo body seems to exhaust so quickly! 

I don't know why I've felt in such a slump recently. It hit in the evening yesterday and persisted throughout today. Yesterday I thought it felt PMS-y, which worried me because obviously I should not be PMSing. Maybe it's just Preggo hormones not making any sense. But for whatever reason, here I sit, feeling lonely. I've been talking (when I say that, I mean texting because I hate talking on the phone!) to out of town friends to perk me up, but it's not the same as having ten over and just sitting in the couch chatting. I don't have anything in particular I want to chat about, but being a girl (and a Quality Time) I just like to be with others. 

Lord, please send me some good friends soon! Please develop my friendships now or send me new friends!