I've been feeling pretty "normal". I still think about the baby, of course, every day, in fact. I still wish the baby was healthy and growing, but I am living each day and enjoying life.
Then tonight. I was feeling emotional (due to other reasons) and was texting with a friend (one of my closest friends) and I ended up telling her about the baby. I almost told her anyways, but each time decided to wait. I just slipped it into the conversation (because there actually was a context) and we talked about it a little. By the end of our conversation I was feeling pretty sad again. Talking about the baby has helped up to this point. Now maybe instead of easing the pain, talking about the baby will help me to grieve again. The grieving process is continuous and never ends. I am thankful for this. I miss my baby every day and feeling sad about the baby helps me remember the baby.
So yes, talk to friends or family (whoever you feel comfortable with) after a miscarriage to help you cope. Talk to them while you are sad, angry, disappointed. And then when you feel back to your normal routine, talk to your friends and family (the same or more) and allow yourself to grieve again. Embrace the stages of grief and allow yourself to mourn.
I love you, angel baby. Your Momma loves you always and forever.
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